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anyone. Rob looked at Doug, whom he shared a cell with. Doug nodded
defeatedly, and Rob pedaled back to the door and knocked. In a few
seconds, one of the jailers opened it and Rob told him he wanted to go
back to his cell. Chip remained standing, poised to attack, and before the
door shut he said, “Go fucking hang yourself, Rob.”
Once Rob was gone, Chip sat back down. Jerry dealt another hand.
Chip said, “at motherfucker is going to get stabbed in the joint.” Chip
was always fondly calling it the joint, because, he said, that’s what people
who’d been there called it.
I half-believed there would be some way I could just tell them, “Hey,
my mom’s a librarian at the school in Roosevelt. My dad works for the
Department of Agriculture. Can I go now?” And they’d say “Sure, right
this way,” and there would be the sun and the trees and my mom and dad
and maybe even cable television.
I half-believed that if I full-on-believed this, that it might actually
happen—sort of like believing your belief can shrink a tumor.
e place was all concrete. Concrete oors, concrete walls, concrete
ceilings. And it was this brownish-green concrete, like the color of
expired guacamole. And everything was all steel. Steel bars, steel bunks,
steel sinks, steel toilets. And it was all rusty, the grey paint peeling o in
akes. Sometimes when I was bored, I picked at it like a scab.
e base of each bunk was two soldered-together road signs, some
diamond-shaped, some octagonal. Our mattresses were these tattered
green canvass bags stued with something vaguely cushiony. e pillows
were the same, only thinner, with less cushion. ey gave us a spread to go
over the mattress, a sheet, and a thin wool blanket. You had to have your
bed made before you could go to the dayroom.
We’d all have our beds made well before 3 PM, the time they’d let us
go to the dayroom. It seemed like we always had a long hour or so to kill.
Someone had pulled out a Maxim, and Greg, the only one who wouldn’t
say what he was in for, was raving about a woman in an advertisement
who had on a certain pair of blue jeans. Greg was in his ies, the oldest
among us. So-spoken, he wore glasses, was in good shape, and seemed
like an all-around nice guy. Like he’d be a good father or something. For
these reasons, he creeped me out.
“Right there,” Greg said, his nger over the girl in the ad. She stood
in a golden eld with arms outstretched, her ass facing us. “at’s what I
like. A girl in blue jeans. Woohoo!”